What a wierd day!

I am not sure where to start but it nearly broke my heart today, when I was picking up my little girl. I walk into pre-prep today and she is sitting on her own at a table and chair while all her little friends are outside playing. This is something that doesn't usually worry me, cause she is a very independant little thing and doesn't mind being in her own company. But as soon as I walk over to her, she sees me, gives me a huge hug and starts crying(very unusual for her). Apparantley it was over something as silly as her getting no help with the packing up of her bed which gave her no time to play with her friends and she felt that no one loves her, I just wanted to melt!

The wierdest thing is when we were driving from pre-prep to ballet and she says to me from the back seat, "Mummy I don't like this world and I don't want to be here any more", well what do you say to that. I am having flashes of her being a teenager and not dealing with all the pressures that todays society puts on a young person. Thankfully she finished the sentence by saying she would like to take her little friend Greta to this other world with her!!!!

I understand that kids and especially 4 year olds have lots of questions and that usually they don't really want an answer but what do you say to questions like this anyway and when did kids get so deep and so sad that they don't want to be here any more. It just makes you want to put your motherly wings out and protect them from all these horrible feelings, but its nice to know that she feels she can express herself and talk about how she is feeling........its just so hard being a mummy sometimes and feeling you can't protect them from some of the harsh realities of life, don't get me wrong, I am not trying to wrap her in cotton wool and protect her from everything, its important to have these feelings and to learn that life is not all parties and fun, its just hard seeing your child looking so sad.........

Now on a lighter note and to cheer myself up....we were shopping at ikea a couple of weeks ago and Amber was going on and on about wanting this stuffed rabbit.......well we gave in and bought it for her as she had been a good girl all weekend and we had dragged her all around the world with house renovating things that we had to get done. Now I thought this would be just another stuffed toy that would be loved for a day or two and then relagated to the toy box and never seen again.......well boy did I get things wrong.........this little rabbit is her baby Jo Jo now and she treats it like her little baby taking it with her everywhere she goes, feeding it(breastfeeding lmao), and sleeping with it every night without fail and this is the priceless photo I took of her on the very first night that he came home with us. So welcome to the family Jo Jo and maybe next time I won't be so quick to judge!!!!

Sorry the photos are not the best quality but as you can see Jo Jo spent the whole night in her pouch(pants), and it was just so adorable! Our little girl is such a little mother and I just love her to pieces......goodnight my little angel you are just devine!!!