Tell me a story.......................reminiscing about 1927!

Ok I know I am old but I am not taking everyone back quite that far! I am talking about the band 1927 and unless your 30 plus and grew up in Australia you would probably have no idea who I am talking about, but back in 1989 they were the cats meow! I would spend hours and I mean hours arguing with my best friend Vanessa debating who loved the lead singer Eric more!!! And even though no one ever won this discussion it was never really about Eric it was really all about our friendship.

So its a strange thing to be heading along to their 20th Anniversary of their first single "Thats When I Think of You", without my best friend but with my husband. Don't get me wrong I love that David is happy to share something special like this with me, but there is something special about sharing and reminiscing about another time when we were crazy teenagers before life got in the way, in the days when life really was carefree and fun, even though at the time I did not realize this!

In a way seeing this band makes me a little melencholy we've all got a little older and some now have dreadlocks and piercings(and that is not me by the way lol)about a past time and a lost friendship. Vanessa and myself used to be inseperable, we did everything and shared everything together, our deepest secrets and fears to our first kisses and secret crushes. But some how 20 years later we lost what I thought we would never loose and that was we drifted apart. Its funny we managed to stay close through so many things like living overseas and through lost loves and failed relationships and no matter how much time went past we could come back together and it was like we had never been apart.









So where did things go wrong I am not sure............but its something that leaves me in a sad place whenever I think about it at the moment. I am not pointing fingers or putting the blame on either end as I think like any relationship no matter how easy or comfortable you are, it still needs to be worked at and appriciated so it can grow and develop and I think that is what happened we both ignored it and allowed ourselves to be hurt in the process about certain events until one day we woke up and realized to much damage and hurt had taken place and I think we came to a place that we were very unfamilar with and that we didn't know how to fix it!

I know it sounds obscure as all I have to do is be brave enough to pick up the phone, but I feel there has been so much pain over the last several years that to put my foot back in the ring and set myself up to be hurt again, well I just think I don't have the strength to do that even though it was a friendship worth fighting for.

I am not typing this post to put my grievances out in the open, I guess I am just reflecting about life and change and how important it is to make a little bit of time for the people that mean something to you. Its such a hard and exhausting thing sometimes to find the time as I feel like I barely have enough time to share with my children and husband , but I don't want to loose me in that process either as I feel that is an important thing to pass on to my children that there are many types of relationships and loves and they are all equally important as they make you who you are and the type of person that you are or that you want to be. I feel its important to teach your children that life is not going to be happy and perfect all the time and that without pain we can never truly appricate how beautiful and special life can be.

Life is certainly a funny creature, if you had asked me when I was a teenager where I would be when I was in my thirties and what i envisioned was far, far away from where I landed. Do I have any regrets yes but i feel that is the way we learn in life and would I change anything, I probably should say yes, but I don't think I would have changed my path to much. The only thing I am really sad about is that i wasn't a little more truthful about my friendships and that I wasn't a little more honest and open about how I felt.

I always envisioned that our friendship would be like in the movie "Beaches"(but without the death lol), that we would be their for each other when we had children and that distance and life would not hold us back! So on reflection these are the things that make me sad and that I am going to miss. I wish only beautiful things my sweet friend!



I guess I am reflecting a little to much about life, love and loss at the moment and I am not complaining because when I read about people like Sheye who have lost a child it makes me realize that I have nothing to complain about in the slightest, I am just one of those sensetive souls that reads way to much into everything and sometimes feels way to deeply for my own good and as much as I hate that I am like that, I appricate the fact that I get to experience things so deeply.

My dog is very ill at the moment and doesn't have long to go and I know that I am going to have to make that hard decision soon to put him down and I know that after 13 years that it is going to kill me to make that decision even though that is the best thing for him. Life is certainly a fragile thing and even though it is excrushiatingly painful sometimes it is also a beautiful thing, just when you think you can't take much more life throws you a rainbow. So I am just going to try and let the sunshine in and I know that rainbow is out there just around the corner.

So thank you honey for allowing me to feel like a teenager for 10 minutes, I had a lovely night. I feel very fortunate that I got to spend the night with my love, my friend and my soul mate! Would I swap him for Eric the lead singer now............let me think..............NO WAY!

Hugs Kylie xx

Ava's Tea Party!

It was an honour for us to partake in what will hopefully be a annual event in our home with AVA'S TEA PARTY on the 22nd of August to celebrate her birthday! It amazes me how affected and moved Amber and myself have become in such a small amount of time thanks to how openly honest and willing to share their heartbreaking story this family have been.

Sometimes we need a wake up call in life to make us realize what is important and its not about money or what material possessions we own or how talented we are or popular we are, the most valued thing we can ever give in life is something that is free and that is to reach out to the people that mean the most to us and give them the gift of our time and love. I feel very fortunate that I have never had to experience that kind of loss and I can only imagine the pain and suffering one would have with the loss of a child, my heart just breaks and aches at the thought of it. Sometimes I nearly cry when I look at my daughter and son and think of how lucky I am to have two health and hopefully happy children, I truly feel blessed!

So even though there is work mounting up around my ears and the house looks as if it has been hit by a bomb, I have come to realize that life is way to short and you really do need to seize the day and live life like there is no tomorrow. A friend once said to me and this is so true about life. Her question to me was, "What are you going to remember back about in 10 years time? That you had a clean and shiny house or that you put down what you were doing and went out and made some memories with your children!" So I am going to try and live by that philosophy thank you so much Catherine for such wise words. So even though I struggle with this all the time it is now my mission to live in the moment and try to soak up every wonderful minute!

It was also a perfect time to sit down and discuss with my daughter once again about what happened on that day that Ava flew away to heaven and how important it is to educate our family and friends with small children so something like this never has to happen ever again! For any one that does not know the Rosemeyer's story and would like to learn more about how to prevent something like this happening to them please go to Sheye's beautiful blog to read about their beautiful yet painstaking sad story about the day their angel went away please click her if you wish to read more http://www.sheyerosemeyerphotography.com/blog/ava/

It was certainly a challenge this weekend to achieve such a special tea party with David working all weekend that left just me and the kids to bake and set up the tea party quite a challenge with a spirited 10 month old on the loose! And even though the pressure was on to successfully achieve what would hopefully resemble a magical tea party in the back garden, our little man was on a mission to make my daughter scream and not with glee might I add, more in horror with the destructive course of action he was about to partake on the poor pink cup cakes which were in his sight lol! So in between the squeals and screams and the many trips up our stairs (Aidan's favourite pastime at the moment!) we still managed to squeeze in a fabulous time and the pink milk was just amazing, I have to say it has been a long time since I consumed pink milk but thank you Ava it was delicious and brought back many a beautiful memories from my childhood!

The start of all the trouble, the deconstruction of the cupcake!

Here is the cheeky one about to put his plan into action!

Give us a kiss!

Ahh......the stairs such fond memories!

Who ever thought that a winter day in August would be so heavenly, Ava must have been spinning and dancing around with glee at how perfect and delicious a day it was! I hope the day brought the Rosemeyer's at least at least a little comfort as they look through all the celebrations that have been held and how proud they must be to have her memory live on in such a beautiful and special way! Thank you so much Sheye and family for allowing us to share in such a special day with you all! So here is to pink cupcakes, pink milk, fairy wings and everything beautiful Happy Birthday sweet, sweet little girl may your tea party's live on in your name forever and thank you for allowing us to share them with you!